Wednesday, 10 March 2010

  • Honestly, i kinda of think that there is really little truth in the phrase" one who loves you loves your everything including flaws". They love you for who you are and secretly hopes that you could eliminate your flaws ( that fat ass, thunder thighs and more....) They will say you are great when you ask them about these concern areas but you could catch them peeking at the girls with hot bods. They love you but indeed they still love the typical hourglass figure like that of Kelly brook and pretty faces that you might have to live without. But you on the other hand, had love him the way he was never looked at other guys and never expect him to be like the guys in Twlight. Life just isn't very fair so far, some peeps were born fat while some were stick thin, big boobs small boobs and so forth.. The expectations on women are so much higher and the stress they received were tremedous not only weight issues, family and on career. Men can just slough all day and have a big beer belly yet expect his wife to have a 36-24-36.

    Well, i guess is time to do something for myself for once in my life. A gift for myself not for anyone else. those who looked down on me, those who told me i couldn't make it even my own mom, those who give "special" treatment to me because of how i look You will be sorry and I will be happy. I have my life in my hands and i deserved the last laugh.

Tuesday, 02 March 2010

  • New Updates in my life...

    1.  I spoilt my phone and lost someone else's phone
    2. I was late for a test and was denied access to the exam hall and thus got a BIG FAT ZERO .
    3. Currently busy with all sorts of projects
    4. Done with B2B presentation. Didn't know I had such serious stage fright.
    5. Wants to go sing K.
    6. Have made the first step- To lose weight
    7. Just watch the Lightning Thief ( its awesome)
    8. Bought a lucky crystal (i hope it is really luck it will bring)

    Elaboration:

    When? Why ? What? How?

    My LG touch screen phone was not working anymore and so i borrowed a phone from my god sis, then after a week i left it on a cab and bid goodbye to it ...

    I was late for the test and it was almost 1/2 hour late and regulation said i can't take the test which constitute to 30% of my overall marks for B2B. Well, I might not passed the test anyway since I wasn't that well prepared in the first place.

    March is definitely the craziest month of my 3 years in SIM, there is no more time to slack and chill as usual there are so many project deadlines to meet and presentation to prepare. Hope all the hardwork is worth it.

    Had my presentation for B2B yesterday, it was quite scary cause I kinda of did not rehearse for my part and need to memorise loads of technical stuff..

    Yesterday, I was proud of myself I went to the Gym and I  workout! Hope I could continue to work hard to lose some serious weight.

    Went to watch the Lightning Thief and were so impressed with the half mortal half god theory. Told my baby that I must be one of them, half god and half mortal too. I told him I must be the descendant of  Goddess of Sex and Seduction (Aphrodite). And a curse had been laid on her descendants to be born fat to disguise their charm and beauty, the curse will only be lifted if the descendants is able to lose weight. Well it is true that i am able to lure and seduce my baby (that part he did agree). Haha but he thinks I am loony for the half god part he said why not the God of Pigs... Hmm which I was kinda of sad , i guess no one will know the truth until i help to lift my own curse? Which i think i could .

    Bought a crystal bracelet recently it cost me $100 over dollars it is supposed to be a lucky one cause it has the chinese Metal and Water element which I lack in my five elements and the shop owner said it is very rare to have this crystals. And so as usual, after hearing the "RARE" word, i happily and willingly hand the money to the shop owner. The crystals is called Herkimer Diamond well wonder if anyone knows about it. Hope it will bring me incredible luck, wishes fufilled and smooth sailing ahead.

    Off to finish up my project and skipping! Yeah

Sunday, 14 February 2010

  • Again, again the same new year resolution...

    I hate to say that I really hated new year resolution, it is just a simple reminder of how much a failure I was. NEVER in my life had I fufill what I plan for the year, the first item on the list will always be losing weight, become beautiful..blah blah blah and the list does not stop... But this Chinese New Year will definitely be a hard wake up call of how FAT I am..Everyone thinks I am Fat, I can't wear what I previously bought...People are really superficial.Everyone just hate fat people.They will say you are cute in front of you and talk bad about you behind your back..I don't believe this is how my life should be. I want to be in control of my life. I hold my destiny in my hand and I will get what I want...

    • Slim down to 42kg-46kg
    • Maintain my bust size (lose weight but not boobs)
    • Have a figure of 32E-22-32
    • I will have an angelic face and devil's hot body
    • Be healthy, workout daily
    • Goodbye, the fat chick, say hi to gorgeous me...

    Countdown to plan: 14 DAYS..

Saturday, 13 February 2010

  • The Trust Issue

    I am just a hopeless fat chick that nobody believes in.Even if I wanted to try this last time, he who I regard as my so (significant other),  refused to believe or help me out. All he thinks about was his money, afraid that I used his money. He said I will waste the money cause I never go for even 4 times a month and if I want to insist on going don't waste his money. How great, one expects me to puff and suddenly I become slim without any effort. Nobody trust and believes that I can do so.I am alone in this battle.I will fight till I win, all of you wait and see... While what you can do was only to be angry. No matter what it takes and at all cost, I will win. To all that laughs at what I determined to do, thanks for being that pushing forces. Doubt so when I win you can still open your mouth and laugh.
  • The honest fat girl

    I did something great today, I found a wallet in the taxi  yesterday, it has lots of cards, cheque of $800 over and $50 in it, although I am cash tight, I still have my little honesty in me, I return everything intact, the way I found it to the owner. It is great if you could give a helping hand, a meaningful way to start the Chinese New Year.

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